My First Profound Medicine Journey: Reconnecting to My Body
Mushrooms can heal me?!
For most of my adolescence and early twenties, I didn’t give much thought to my body/mind connection or my menstrual cycle. I had spent most of my adult life disconnected from my natural rhythms—too busy, too distracted, and too caught up in my everyday life to truly listen to my body. At this point in my international travels, my cycle had been absent for seven months. Honestly, I didn't worry about it too much. I didn’t know how to slow down or truly tune in, and I had never used psychedelics with any intention other than for a fun social experience. But everything changed at a music festival when a casual mushroom trip turned into a healing somatic experience.
The Shift: A Call for Healing
I found myself at a music festival in Florida, surrounded by sunshine, music, and people. People were all different shades of faded, and I thought this would be a fun place to trip. I had never associated mushrooms as medicine, and never had deep intentions around my eating them. It had always been about the experience—the play, the colors, the euphoria. But this time, I noticed the mushrooms were starting to help me relax.
While outstretched on the grass, I asked the mushrooms to show me full relaxation in my body. I asked for support in releasing patterns of tightness and tension, to help me melt into the moment.
The Unexpected Gift
As I allowed the mushrooms to guide me, the world around me softened. The music, the sunlight, the laughter—it all became a beautiful flow of energy. But what happened inside of me was far more profound. A deep sense of warmth and release washed through my body. All of my muscles began to relax. Every cell in my body seemed to soften and take up more space. I felt simultaneous expansion and melting. It was as if my body was breathing for the first time in ages.
And then, something truly miraculous happened: my bleed returned right then and there.
It wasn’t something I had specifically asked for, but it was as if my body had been waiting for this moment of reconnection. After seven months of absence, my cycle came back to me in the middle of the festival field! I had been so disconnected from my body’s natural rhythms that I had never considered how my own stress could impact a bodily function like menses.
A Moment of Clarity: Psychedelics Are Not Just for Fun
Up until that moment, I had always thought of psychedelics as tools for fun, exploration, and play. But this journey showed me something completely different: psychedelics are also profound tools for healing and self-discovery.
For the first time, I understood that these substances could open a door to deeper connection—connecting with my body, my emotions in ways I had never known before. The experience wasn’t just about being altered. It was about healing, reconnection, and understanding.
That moment, when my cycle returned, was a powerful reminder that our bodies have their own wisdom. I hadn’t even been aware of how disconnected I was until the medicine gently guided me back to myself. The mushrooms didn’t just bring my cycle back; they helped me remember how to listen to my body’s needs and honor its rhythms.
A New Path: Integration and Healing
The journey didn’t end when the trip did. The real work began after—when I started to integrate the experience into my daily life. I had received a powerful message: I needed to pay attention to my body. I needed to slow down, relax, and reconnect with my natural cycles. I couldn’t continue ignoring the signals my body was giving me.
For the first time, I began to prioritize rest, self-care, and tuning in to my own rhythms. I started to see my menstrual cycle not as an inconvenience, but as a beautiful, cyclical guide to my overall well-being. I learned about the four different phases of menses and how they relate to seasons. I started to life my life in tune with my internal seasons. The power of relaxation that I experienced in that moment stayed with me, reminding me that true healing happens when we listen to our bodies instead of pushing through or ignoring them.
Conclusion: Reclaiming My Feminine Energy
My festival journey with mushrooms wasn’t just an experience—it was a profound moment of awakening. I came to realize that psychedelics can be far more than just a fun escape; they can be powerful allies in the process of healing, self-discovery, and reconnection. My body, which I had ignored for so long, showed me that it knew how to heal itself when given the space and attention it needed.
The return of my menstrual cycle wasn’t just a physical event; it was a reminder that our bodies are deeply connected to the earth, the moon, and the cycles of life. By listening to my body and allowing it to guide me, I found a new sense of peace and alignment within myself.
This journey was the beginning of a new chapter, where I’ve learned to honor my body, trust its wisdom, and reconnect with my true feminine energy. And I know that, moving forward, I’ll always carry the lessons of that first journey with me—showing me that healing is not just about the mind, but also about returning to the body, and honoring the rhythms that make us whole.
